Aku Yang Tersakiti

pernahkah kau merasa jarak antara kita
kini semakin terasa setelah kau kenal dia
aku tiada percaya teganya kau putuskan
indahnya cinta kita yang tak ingin ku akhiri
kau pergi tinggalkanku

tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti
engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari
oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia
memang takkan mudah bagiku tuk lupakan segalanya
aku pergi untuk dia

tak pernahkah kau sadari akulah yang kau sakiti
engkau pergi dengan janjimu yang telah kau ingkari
oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia
(walau tak bersama dia)

oh tuhan tolonglah aku hapuskan rasa cintaku
aku pun ingin bahagia walau tak bersama dia

Dia atau Diriku

Sungguh tak mungkin
Dalam kisah ini
Kita ‘kan bersatu

Bila tak pernah
Ada perasaaan
Cinta seutuhnya

Kini akhirnya
Kau harus memilih
Dia atau dirku

Yang pantas mendapatkan
Pantas menjadi kekasihmu

Sampai kapankah kita
Akan bersama bila tak pernah ada
Perasaan cinta natara kita
Perasaan saling menyayangi

Sampai kapankah kita
Akan bersama bila kau hanya bisa
Mencintaiku separuh hatimu
Separuh kau mencintainya

Sungguh tak mungkin
Sungguh tak bisa
Kita ‘kan bersama
Bila kau masih membagi cinta

Footprints In the Sands

You walked with me,
Footprints in the sand,
And helped me understand,
Where I'm going,

You walked with me,
When I was all alone,
With so much unknown,
Along the way,
Then I heard you say,

I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled with sorrow,
And despair, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

I see my life flash across the sky,
So many times have I been so afraid.
And just when I, have thought I lost my way,
You gave me strength to carry on,
It's then I heard you say,

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled
With sorrow and despair
And, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

When I'm with you,
Well I know you've been there,
And I can feel you when you say,

I promise you (you)
I'm always there
When your heart is filled (when your heart)
With sadness and despair (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend (need a friend)
You'll find my footprints in the sand. (I promise you)

Ohh. (I'm always there)

When your heart is full of
Sadness and despair, (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend. (I'll carry you)
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

Uhh mmhhh. 

Karna Ku Sanggup

Biar aku sentuhmu berikanku rasa itu
Pelukmu yang dulu pernah buatku
Ku tak bisa paksamu tuk tinggal di sisiku
Walau kau yang selalu sakiti aku dengan perbuatanmu
Namun sudah kau pergilah jangan kau sesali

Karena ku sanggup walau ku tak mau
Berdiri sendiri tanpamu
Aku mau kau tak usah ragu tinggalkan aku
Kalau memang harus begitu
Tak yakin ku kan mampu hapus rasa sakitku
Ku selalu perjuangkan cinta kita namun apa salahku
Hingga ku tak layak dapatkan kesungguhanmu

Semua Isi Hatimu

Kau katakan padaku
Betapa lelahnya dirimu menghadapi aku
Kau katakan padaku
Ingin kau mengakhiri semua ini
Tak bisakah engkau cuba
Melihat diriku dan semua cintaku
Tak bisakah engkau cuba
Hargai hatiku dan perasaan ku untukmu
Cubalah tuk mengerti aku
Seperti aku yang mengerti semua tentang dirimu
Cubalah tuk merasakanku
Seperti aku yang merasakan semua isi hatimu
Tak bisakah engkau cuba
Melihat diriku dan semua cintaku
Tak bisakah engkau cuba
Hargai hatiku dan perasaanku
Yang hanyalah teruntuk dirimu
Cubalah tuk mengerti aku
Seperti aku yang mengerti semua tentang dirimu
Cubalah tuk merasa aku
Seperti aku yang merasakan semua isi hatimu
Cubalah tu cubalah tuk mengerti aku
Cubalah tuk merasa aku
seperti aku yang merasakan semua isi hatimu
Semua isi hatimu

Deja Vu

Aku bukan lemah tanpa cinta
Hanya tidak mampu sendiri tanpanya
Biarkan aku menangis kerna derita

Dia hadir mengubatkan rindu
Mengajarkan aku erti cinta
Namun semua tidak seindah ku sangka

Dialah yang aku inginkan
Dia cinta yang kudambakan
Namun semua hanya tinggal mimpi
Terpisahnya cinta

Aku harus melupakannya
Aku harus memadam rasa
Namun hati tidak pernah mampu
Melepas kau pergi

Setelah sedar dari mimpi
Harus ku terus hidup tanpamu
Kini ku pasrah segalanya
Tentang cinta 

** aku, kau dan dia **

Persimpangan hidup ku..

Terlalu banyak yang terjadi dalam hidupku

Aku selalu berada di persimpangan

Persimpangan yang menutupkan dua takdir  yang berbeza

Aku sedar,

Setiap persimpangan itu, aku harus memilih antaranya.

Manusia tidak pernah dapat kesemuanya.

Hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk memikirkan perihal yang amat panjang,

Walaupun sesuatu yang singkat akan berlaku dalam kehidupan ku yang terasa perlahan

Kerana aku menemui mu sekarang dalam kehidupan ku di masa lampau.

~larry cassidy~

Jagalah Diri

Mata kau berhenti menangis
Jemari kesat ke pipi
Hati cukuplah dirasuk sedih
Kerana kau takkan kembali

Takdir mengubah hubungan kita
Dia padam dari jaga
Bicara hanyalah dalam doa
Yang dipanjat pada yang Esa

Ya Tuhanku
Jagalah diri ini menempuh
Hidup sepi tabah menerima takdir

Ya Tuhanku
Ketemukanlah kami berdua nanti
Hingga itu ku mohon kau
Jagalah dirinya

Jiwa walaupun terpisah jua
Selalu pergi dengan-Nya
Sisa yang masih ada di sini
Ku bertaut ke nafas terakhir

Ya Tuhanku
Jagalah diri ini menempuh
Hidup sepi tabah menerima takdir

Ya Tuhanku
Ketemukanlah kami berdua nanti
Hingga itu ku mohon kau
Jagalah dirinya

Hingga itu ku mohon kau
Jagalah dirinya
Jagalah dirinya

i wont let go

It's like a storm
That cuts a path
It breaks your will
It feels like that

You think you're lost
But you're not lost on your own
you're not alone

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go

It hurts my heart
To see you cry
I know it's dark
This part of life
Oh it finds us all
And we're too small
To stop the rain
Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight

And I won't let you fall
Don't be afraid to fall
I'm right here to catch you
I won't let you down
It won't get you down
you're gonna make it
Yeah I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
And you can't cope
And I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go
Oh I'm gonna hold you
And I won't let go
Won't let you go
No I won't

Mengintai Dari Tirai Kamar

Dinginnya angin malam ini
Menyapa tubuhku
Namun tidak dapat mendinginkan
Hatiku yang kau hangatkan

Terasa tercabarnya kelakianku ini
Dengan sikapmu menentanglah
Aku ini insan kekurangan
Senangnya kau mainkan...

Siapalah aku ini untuk
Memintal buih yang memutih
Menjadi permaidani seperti mana
Yang tertulis dalam novel cinta...

Juga mustahil bagiku
Menggapai bintang di langit
Menjadikan hantaran syarat untuk milikimu semua itu
Sungguh aku tak termampu...

Silap aku juga
Kerana jatuh cinta
Insan sepertimu
Seanggun bidadari

Seharusnya aku cerminkan diri
Ku sebelum tirai kamar aku
Buka mengintaimu...

Renungilahhh...

Renungilah sejenak kata-kata ini...

Disaat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang, ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya dulu...

Disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya, ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya dulu..

Disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya, ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya senantiasa...

Disaat kamu ingin menduakannya, bayangkan jika dia selalu setia bersamamu...

Disaat kamu ingin membohonginya, ingatlah saat dia jujur kepadamu...

Tetapi awas ! Jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak berada disisimu lagi...baru anda sedari betapa bermakna semuanya untukmu...

Yang indah hanya sementara...Yang abadi adalah kenangan...

Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati...Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari...

Oleh itu, belajarlah untuk jujur pada diri sendiri, lakukan apa kata hati, sehingga kamu tidak perlu lagi menyembunyikan apapun dalam hidupmu...

Monster..

It's been a while since we've met
Your face looks good
You got prettier, you were always beautiful in my eyes

But today you look a bit different
You look especially a bit cold
Your eyes that look at me are filled with pity
In front of you, I seem smaller

I tried to be fine, trying to change the subject
Though I had so much I wanted to ask you
You cut me off right away
Your long hair flowing
As it hit my cheek and passed away
You turn away and left right away
If I try to catch you here, would that be too ridiculous?

Nothing comes to my mind
As you tremble, you take a step, two steps back
You say that I scare you now
You're like a moon that makes me go crazy

I love you baby I'm not a monster
You know how I was in the past
When time passes, it'll all disappear
Then you will know baby
I need you baby I'm not a monster
You know me so don't leave like this
If even you throw me away, I will die
I'm not a monster

No matter what happens, let's be forever
When we're sad, when we're happy, let's go till the end
You don't say that tomorrow
Let's love like today is the last

A life without you is like an imprisonment for life
An extinction from the world to the point where I'd go crazy
Your existence is a chronic disease, a repetition of pain
You're a lingering attachment in my heart

The people of the world have turned their backs against me
The corners of their eyes are all twisted up
The greatest pain to me,
Is the fact that you became the same as them

I love you baby I'm not a monster
You know how I was in the past
When time passes, it'll all disappear
Then you will know baby
I need you baby I'm not a monster
You know me so don't leave like this
If even you throw me away, I will die
I'm not a monster

Don't go, don't go, don't go, don't leave me
Don't do it, don't do it, don't do it, it's not like you
Getting farther away, love is breaking apart

Don't find me, don't find me, don't find me, don't look for me
The last, last, last image of me in front of you – remember that
Don't forget me

I love you baby I'm not a monster
You know how I was in the past
When time passes, it'll all disappear
Then you will know baby
I need you baby I'm not a monster
You know me so don't leave like this
If even you throw me away, I will die
I'm not a monster

I think I'm sick I think I'm sick
I think I'm sick I think I'm sick

Because I Miss You

Always under exactly the same sky, always exactly the same day
Other than your not being here, there’s nothing different at all
I just want to smile, want to forget everything
Just like absolutely nothing has happened, smiling to live my days

Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you
Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today

I thought I’d let go, not leaving anything behind
No, no, now I still can’t let you go
Miss you, miss you so much, because I miss you so much
Everyday all by myself, calling and calling you

Want to see you, want to see you, because I want to see you so much
Now it’s like I have this habit, keep calling out your name
It’s the same today

Everyday, everyday, it feels like I’m gonna die, what should I do?

Love you, love you, I love you
I hadn’t even spoken the words, I just let you go
Sorry, sorry, do you hear my words
My late confession, can you hear it
I love you

Gerimis Mengundang.

Sunday | 4.16pm | Kamsis

Hi Bloggers..

How r u today... i hope everything will be fine as usual... For the 1st time after 1 month i guess, Mukah receive a heavy rain... TQVM God... The weather back to  normal...

But, does this heavy rain can help me ease my feeling right now?

i often telling myself, advice myself not to attach with someone... But, what can i do, the feeling come automatically...

To be frank, at first, this person is not my type... i never dreamed to fall or to like this kind of person.. But, i dunno, all of sudden i fall to this person... O god...

And now, i have to pay for the price... in the end, i'm nothing to this person.. i can felt that, i'm just a place for this person to rely on.. goshh.. how stupid am i..

all i need is an answer... thats all.. no matter how bad it is... but at least i know...

No matter how hard i try, but seems all my effort useless... i'm tired already... tired trying... while i'm nothing to this person eyes...

i was chasing this person to like me and the same time this person busy chasing somebody else....

so, i made up my mind... i'm giving up.. and i will leaving you slowly...

sometimes, in order to make ourselves happy we have to let go and ready to sacrifice..

Biarlah ku ubat luka ini sendiri... akan ku ajar hati ku ini...

this is not the 1st time... this the 2nd time... gosh.. why i never realise about this... so stupid...

Terlalu banyak yang terjadi dalam hidupku, aku selalu berada di persimpangan, persimpangan yang menutupkan dua takdir yang berbeza. Aku sedar, setiap persimpangan itu, aku harus memilih antaranya, manusia tidak pernah dapat kesemua nya.. Hidup ini terlalu singkat untuk memikirkan perihal yang amat panjang walaupun sesuatu yang singkat akan berlaku dalam kehidupan ku yang terasa perlahan kerana aku menemui mu sekarang dalam kehidupan ku di masa lampau...

Kusangkakan panas berpanjangan
Rupanya gerimis, rupanya gerimis mengundang
Dalam tak sedar ku kebasahan

Pernah juga kau pinta perpisahan
Aku sangkakan itu hanyalah gurauan
Nyata kau serius dalam senyuman

Bukan sekejap denganmu
Bukan mainan hasratku
Engkau pun tahu niatku
Tulus dan suci
Senang benar kau ucapkan
Kau anggap itu suratan
Sikit pun riak wajahmu
Tiada terkilan

Hanya aku separuh nyawa
Menahan sebak di dada
Sedangkan kau bersahaja
Berlalu tanpa kata
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan
Terasa diri amat terhina kau lakukan

Sia-sia kukorban selama ini
Jika kasihku, jika hatiku
Kau guris oh oh oh...
Dalam tak sedar ku menangis

Hello Again

23.06.2012 @ 2.40am.

Hello bloggers..

It is been a long time since my last update. I was so busy this past few weeks.

 However i manage to keep mylife organise. 

There a few things i want to share with uolls, wht was happen to me lately... A fews week ago i was in Miri for gawai celebration.. a week after gawai i was in Miri again. Basically mylife was on the go...

I did mentioned about this person before. im confused... this person seems to shows interested mood to me but the same time this person busying texting sonebody else.. Arghhhh... Or i am the only one yg perasaan lebih...

i dont know until when i can wait and patient... i just scared when im bored i will automatically ignore.

but at this moment, im trying to cherish the moment..

just remember im not ur 2nd or any choices..

all i need ia an answer...

nite.folks.

So that you love me still

I understood all the words, I understood, thank you.
They were new and made sense, that's why here
Things have changed, and the flowers have wilted
That's why the past was the past
That's why, if everything changes and wears out, then loves also fade away
You should know
I'll look for your heart if you take it somewhere else
Even if when you dance, others are dancing with you
I'll look for your soul in the cold, in the flame
I'll cast a spell on you, so that you love me still
You shouldn't have started, attracted me, touched me
I shouldn't have given so much, I don't know how to play
People tell me that today, they tell me that's how other women do things
I'm not other women
Before we get too close, before we throw it away
You should know
I'll look for your heart if you take it somewhere else
Even if when you dance, others are dancing with you
I'll look for your soul in the cold, in the flame
I'll cast a spell on you, so that you love me still
I'll find other languages to sing your praises
I'll pack our bags for the fields of eternal harvests
I'll say those magic words spoken by African healers
I'll say them with no regrets, so that you love me still
I'll make myself a queen so that you don't leave me
I'll make myself new so the fire starts again
I'll become like those other women who make you happy
Your games will be our games, if that's what you desire
I'll make myself brighter, more beautiful, to rekindle the spark
I'll turn myself to gold, so that you love me still

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Thank God I Found You...

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself
For the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heartache
Would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world
I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Cause without you beside me
I can't survive
I don't want to try
If you're keeping me warm
Each and every night
I'll be alright
Cause I need you in my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

See, I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess
It shows that we were
Destined to shine
After the rain
To appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby, I'm so thankful
I found you

Thank God I found you
I was lost without you
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful
I found you

T.G.I.S

20.05.2012 | 2.40pm | Sunday | Kamsis

Hello there..

Late update again.. Hehehe.. i was in Sibu yesterday sending my Silver Knight for servicing.. Went there with my bestie... Spent almost the whole day together with them...

Sweet memory...

Alive...

Hi..

I'm suppose to  update this morning.. But, too busy so i forget about it..

People used to say, telling the truth is the most hardest part, but once you reveal the truth you will so much relief...

Well, that is happen to me last nite.. After the long wait, i'm telling the truth about my feeling to that person that i like... Well, there is no direct answered from that person, but at least i think i have 50% chances... Even though it is impossible for me to win that person heart... Hehehe.. But i try my best....

think positive..

TQ.

Happy Teachers Day

Happy Teachers Day to All Teachers...

Thank you for everything...

BERBURU ke padang datar Dapat rusa belang kaki Berguru kepala ajar Ibarat bunga kembang tak jadi (dedikasi kepada Hari Guru dan guruku tercinta) Dialah pemberi paling setia Tiap akar ilmu miliknya Pelita dan lampu segala Untuk manusia sebelum jadi dewasa. Dialah ibu dialah bapa juga sahabat Alur kesetiaan mengalirkan nasihat Pemimpin yang ditauliahkan segala umat Seribu tahun katanya menjadi hikmat. Jika hari ini seorang Perdana Menteri berkuasa Jika hari ini seorang Raja menaiki takhta Jika hari ini seorang Presiden sebuah negara Jika hari ini seorang ulama yang mulia Jika hari ini seorang peguam menang bicara Jika hari ini seorang penulis terkemuka Jika hari ini siapa sahaja menjadi dewasa; Sejarahnya dimulakan oleh seorang guru biasa Dengan lembut sabarnya mengajar tulis-baca. Di mana-mana dia berdiri di muka muridnya Di sebuah sekolah mewah di Ibu Kota Di bangunan tua sekolah Hulu Terengganu Dia adalah guru mewakili seribu buku; Semakin terpencil duduknya di ceruk desa Semakin bererti tugasnya kepada negara. Jadilah apa pun pada akhir kehidupanmu, guruku Budi yang diapungkan di dulangi ilmu Panggilan keramat "cikgu" kekal terpahat Menjadi kenangan ke akhir hayat. USMAN AWANG 1979

I'm Serious.

1.42pm | Sunday | Kamsis | 13.05.2012

Hi...

I don't know where to start. But, as i said before, i met someone that i like.. I'm hoping something like fireworks between both us which is i think very impossible..

But, to tell the truth, I'm very Serious, i don't have time to play around..

but, i scared it just only me who have this kind of feeling where by the other person only took advantage from me.. Huhuhuhuh....

Confused... Blurred..

Cinta Bersulam Dusta

Bukan niatku kekasih meninggalkanmu
Namun hati rasa pedih dipermainkanmu
Kita memang berkasih memang bercinta
Namun hatiku merintih kutak bahagia hidup denganmu

Jikalau dulu akulah segalanya
Kau tatangiku aku tempat bermanja
Namun mengapa engkau berubah
Jadi duri hidup ku
Mudahnya engkau mempermainkan cinta
Manis di bibir rupanya sandiwara
Tinggallah aku sendirian di sini menangis tak berlagu

Cinta bersulam dusta
Airmataku jatuh ke riba
Kurawat jiwa yang meronta
Hapuskan sengsara

Tiada guna menangis kupujuk hati ini
Ada baiknya aku berlalu terus berlalu
Kucuba dan kucuba melupakan dirimu
Dan menolak engkau dari mimpiku

Bukan niatku kekasih meninggalkanmu
Namun hati rasa pedih dipermainkanmu
Kita memang berkasih memang bercinta
Namun hatiku merintih kutak bahagia
Hidup denganmu... hidup denganmu

I Dreamed a Dream

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I prayed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
And they turn your dream to shame

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

1st Class Done

8.00pm | Kamsis | 08.05.2012 | Tuesday

Hi there...

Perghhhh.... Luckily my 1st class with DPM / PPM 5 English For Commercial Purposes 5 went very well....

But, only God knows how i felt deep inside my heart...

I'm trying my very best to hide my nervousness and act as usual... Confident is the key of my success... Hehehehe...

Not only that, i'm trying my very best also to avoid making eye contact.. ahahahaa...

But, so far so good... Thx God. 

Almost Here

Did I hear you right
'Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over

You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason

Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me

Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you, you're almost here
(Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you)
And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted)
(Now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
'Cause I know I'm almost here)
Only almost here

Short Semester Begin | 1st Class | 1st Department

8.50am | General Studies Department | Tuesday | 08.05.2012

Hellooo...

Today will be my 1st class with Commerce Department Students... Fuhh... a bit nervous since i known some of the students... Don't know what to expect from the students, and what the students expect from me... O myyyy......

Hello...

07.05.2012 | General Studies Department PMU | 2.30pm

Its been two days i didnt update anything here.. Been busy.. Actually, i went back to Miri for short holiday... Hehehee..

Well, having so much fun with friends.. TQ guys.. Will do it again sometimes soon... Hehehe..

Really need a break after working so hard... So, in Miri back then was my gate away even only for a little while... Hehehehe...

Now, back in Mukah.. My life back as usual.. Nothing much changes...

Tomorrow will be my 1st day for short semester... This semester i teach Commerce Students.. Huhuhuhu.. A bit nervous, don't know wht to expect... hehehee... My 1st time in commerce class... will looking forward to it..

Hopefully, it will be my great and fun class for the rest 6 weeks we together...

Byeee...

Home

7.05am | Kamsis | 04.05.2012 | Friday

Morning..

I'm going back home today... Feel sooo excited... 5hrs driving... Hopefully everything goes well...

Hope my Silver Knight will be fine all the way as usual...

Will be busy in Miri later... i will announce my arrival once i entering Miri district.. Hahaha..

Bye... 

Silence

03.05.2012 | Thursday | 10.00am | General Studies Department.

Morning...

No msg.. No news since yesterday... Just waiting...

Open Arms..

Lying beside you here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere
How could our love be so blind?

We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side

So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me, open arms

Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay

So now I come to you with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping you'll see what your love means to me, open arms

Give Me Forever I Do

Looking out, I see
And I know just how much
You're a part of me

I see you and I together in life
So there's nothing I wouldn't do
To make you my wife

(CHORUS)
Won't you give me forever
To show all of the love
I have here for you
And if you give me
My reason for living
To love you, I love you, I do

With this ring
I'm bound and I promise
I'll never let you down

To family and friends
And the Lord up above
I swear I'll be true to you
And give you my love

(CHORUS)
Won't you give me forever
To show all of the love
I have here for you
And if you give me
My reason for living
To love you, I love you, I do

Oh, baby, I'll love you
Forever and forever
Oh, I do, oh

Won't you give me forever
To show all of the
Love I have for you
All the love I
Have for you, baby

And if you give me
My reason for living

To love you, I love you, I do To love you, I love you, I do To love you, I love you, I do

Finally, its rain..

02.05.2012 | Kamsis | 1.30pm

Finally, its rain... A heavy rain..

TQ God..

Ombak Rindu...

Adira :
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

Hafiz :
Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosa ku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala duka ku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya untuk cintaku

Adira :
Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dari ku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hafiz :
Hujan bawa air mata ku
Yang mengalir membasuh luka ku
Agar dia tahu ku terseksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hafiz & Adira :
Hanya mampu terserah
Moga cahaya di penanti

Hafiz:
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya

Adira:
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisi ku

The Mistic...

1.13pm | Monday | Kamsis | 30.04.2012

Dear blog..

I'm suppose to update u 2 days ago.. But, there is a problem with the internet connection.. The internet connection was down for 2 days.. Jezzz..... My life was upside down... This is the result when we rely too much with internet...

Luckily today, the internet back as usual...

Well, back to our headlines.. there is been something strange to my house last friday.. until today i still cannot figure it out what was exactly happen... The only thing that i sure is, my samsung S II charger gone, my spoilt SE Xperia X2 also gone and fews of my coins in my storage also gone...

FYI, my house located at 2nd floor which only 1 way in and out, main door, which is possible since my main entrance was equip with grill...

Hurmm... i'm not pointing to anybody it just that made me feel not comfortable to leave my house for a long time... 

Moral behind the story, now i became more cautious and a bit paranoid.. huhu..

MEdSI

28.04.2012 | Saturday | 7.05pm | Kamsis

Hi...

Actually, i'm working today.. Invigilate MEdSI (Teacher Wannabe)...

For the 1st time i became Ketua Pengawas.. Sooo nervous coz a lot of responsible... the 59 candidate future is in my hands... But, luckily everything run smoothly... Thx God..

And still wondering what was exactly happen to my house yesterday...

i lost my charger, some of my coins gone even my sony ericssons xperia x2 also gone without trace.. Wonder wonder...

28.04.2012 | Saturday | 6.07pm | Kamsis

Hello Blog..

I'm suppose to upload and update about this thing long time ago... But, i don't have time.. However, i just want to share the gadget that i bought since i was working 2011... Hehehe..

As u can see, all white.. i love white...

Rambling...

7.36am | Friday | 27.04.2012 | General Studies Department.

Hi Blogs..

Good Morning...

I'm suppose to update U last nite.. But, i have something to do, so i forget to update..

Well, last nite i went outing again...

i do enjoy my outing.. i like it... Ahakzzzz...

Someone Like You...

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."
Yeah

Jar Of Hearts

No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Happy Faces...

8.49am | Thursday | 26.04.2012 | General Studies Department.

Morning my Blogs...

My cloudy day gone.. Finally.. Now, i can smile and dance as if no one watching...

My life back to normal.. I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!

Felt so glam, hot and sexy!! 

I Won't Give Up...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

Maher Zain - For The Rest Of My Life

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You’ve found your home it’s here with me, and I’m here with you
Now let me let you know
You’ve opened my heart

I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along, oh
And there’s a couple of words I want to say

Chorus:
For the rest of my life, I’ll be with you
I’ll stay by your side, honest and true
Till the end of my time, I’ll be loving you, loving you

For the rest of my life, through days and nights
I’ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I, I’ll be there for you
I know it deep in my heart

I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You’re my wife, and my friend and my strength
And I pray we’re together in Jannah
Finally now I’ve found my self, I feel so strong
Yes everything was changed when you came along, oh
And there’s a couple of words I want to say

Chorus:
For the rest of my life, I’ll be with you
I’ll stay by your side, honest and true
Till the end of my time, I’ll be loving you, loving you
For the rest of my life, through days and nights
I’ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I, I’ll be there for you
I know it deep in my heart

And now that you’re here, in front of me
I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt, and I’ll sing it loud
And that I will love you eternally

Chorus:
For the rest of my life, I’ll be with you
I’ll stay by your side, honest and true
Till the end of my time, I’ll be loving you, loving you
For the rest of my life, through days and nights
I’ll thank Allah for opening my eyes
Now and forever I, I’ll be there for you
I know it deep in my heart

How Can I Not Love You.....

Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss,
Cannot have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

Cannot dream, Cannot share,
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel,
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave, and we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?
How can I not love you?

Must be brave, and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along
How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you here in my arms?
How does one waltz away from all of the memories?
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you when you are gone?

Pengerindu Ba Ujung Cherita

One of Iban Song that i like... Every words, every sentence meaningful..

Lama......
Cukup pengelama
Aku ingin ka nuan
Kenyau keterubah aku meda
Asai ke di tangkap karan

Ketegal ati amat keran
Sanggup ku ngitung hari
Taja pan bedau di kembuan
Tang aku sanggup nganti

C/O

Tiap kali nuan ayan ba mata
Tubuhku peluh sereta enda bedaya
Aku tebelanga sampai ke bepurus dada
Kelalu kesal diserampur gaga

Diatu enda disangka pengerinduku diterima
Diatu udah nyata ba ujung cherita
Aku asai ke enda pecaya
Ati nuan ulih buka

The song so meaningful....

After Invigilate JP's Paper - Microeconomic

11.13am | Wednesday | 25.04.2012 | General Studies Department.

Good Morning Blogs...

From 8.30-10.30am i was at Dewan Serbaguna PMU, to invigilate paper. Still i cannot focus, even i trying my very best to focus and get rid my mind from thinking about that particular persons.

For every moment i missed that persons... I hope that person know how i felt right now.. Gosh.. I felt so stupid.. But luckily me, i still can do my work as usual, it is just occasionally that the person image appeared in my mind.. I'm trying to msg or called, but i don't have gut to do so... In the end i kept it myself.. Frankly speaking, up to this point, i still don't know about that person feeling towards me.. I'm trying to give the hints and signal, but seems that something holding that person...

I surely hate this feeling...

I really hope that person understand my feeling.. I don't want an old stories re-surface... i can't bear the frustrated feeling...

It is hard to say i love u when there is no feeling involve..

Bored Nite

9.07pm | Tuesday | 24.04.2012 | WA1-2 - Kamsis, PMU.

Sitting at home, doing nothing... Just watching TV and On9... What a boring routine.. How i wish Mukah got a lot of Shopping complex, interesting fast food, or even a nice place to sit and enjoy the nite..

So, here i am, sitting in front of my whitey lappy and trying to write something... What a life...

Seandainya...

Seandainya tidur malamku
Diulit mimpi bersama denganmu
Dan andainya dalam jagaku
Bukannya mimpi namun realiti

Kan kugubah puisi indah
Seribu makna
Demi kasihku padamu

Aku rindu kepadamu
Siang malamku
Bagai tak menentu

Oh Tuhanku kabulkanlah
Demi bahagia
Yang kudamba

Never Too Late Part II

Hi...

How is my day today? Hurmmm.... I'm still looking for the answer... But, for sure, i felt so terrible...

Early in the morning i have to attend Taklimat Kesepakaran Pegawai Pendidikan Pengajian Tinggi (PPPT), but i cannot focus 100%. Ended that i played with phone and whatapps my frens to clear my mind...

My mind was somewhere else.. I kept on thinking about that persons... For some reasons i still cannot reveal who is that person.. But, for sure, i like that persons...

I wonder what was the person doing this whole day... I'm waiting that persons to msg me, but, none... Hurmmm.... Felt frustrated..

I think, that is the reason why i cannot focus the whole week... Luckily, i have this private blog.. So, not all can read my blog.. Hehehe...

But, i really wish "that person" understand what i feel.. arghhhhhhhh... This feeling kill me.. i hate this kind of feeling..

What should i do? I give signal already, but, no +ve response..  Haizzzz.....

Never too late..

Hi Blogger..

Pheww... It is been a long time since my last update...

There are lot of thing happen in my life lately... I do not know how to start..

My life being upside down for a while until i met someone... Someone that make my life more brighter and alive...

For the past 3 months ago, i was so busy with my teaching and learning process in order to achieve the curriculum needs...

My life was in a fast lane, until me myself couldn't get it along..

If you asked me, how is my life lately.. should i lie or telling the truth?? Me myself also not sure with the answer..

It tooks me a long time to start typing.. coz i lost a lot of words ....

well, lets start with what happen lately...

Samsung Galaxy S II

Morning Peeps....

Last Saturday i bought new gadget.. Samsung Galaxy S II...

i like the phone very much...

hehehehe.....